I WANTED TO BE A PORN STAR (PART 4)

In my opinion, if one was in a relationship, the person should enjoy it. I was picky when it came to choosing guys; the guy may not have been too handsome or ‘on point’, but if I set my eyes on him and wanted him, it was not hard to get him. I could start a conversation easily, or position myself in ways that would attract him to me.

Receiving things from guys was not my thing. I hated depending on people, so I only allowed the guys to buy food for me. I loved eating good food, so a guy could not just take me out to buy 5-Alive (fruit juice) or a meat pie. I made sure I ate or ordered a lot, so the guy would know that I was not as cheap as he thought.

I am a straightforward person, so I would tell the guys that came after me that I did not want to date, but if they wanted to prove that they were men, I would play them; also, if I felt anything for a guy, I did not play hard to get – I would give the guy a free pass – I would tell him I wanted to date him, so if he did not want to, I would not talk to him.

The One That Got Away…

 I was quite taken with a particular guy. I wanted him so badly, so I did not really date anyone else. Finally, he accepted to date me, and our relationship was the ideal one to my friends. They always aspired to be like us. We were so close; we talked about almost everything – bad and good – but he was not a Christian, and I was trying to bring him to church, not God.

However, I accepted him that way. He would say all sorts of insane things about God, and I did not care, because I was blinded by lust.

I went to his house every weekend and we lived like a couple. We committed many immoral acts, but I never allowed him to sleep with me because I felt virginity was about the hymen being intact. I had a date in my mind to sleep with him; but, fortunately, God ruined those plans, and the date never came. Later, he was posted to a faraway state for the National Youth Service Corps, and communication through the phone got tiring; I needed a substitute, so I started to date another guy.

Chasing Money

 I loved money seriously, and I lost quite some of it to scams and other schemes. I remember following a man old enough to be my dad; I was really after the money, and I almost slept with him, but something kept pulling me, so I told him, ‘next time’; however, my ‘next time’ never came – God intervened

To be continued…

Miraculous Monday: 6th January 2025

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