God, Don’t Call Me Now…
I was not even going to church anymore. At the most, visiting twice in a semester was okay for me – going to church, in my opinion, was a show of clothes and money.
God actually blessed me with, mostly, innocent and godly friends; in fact, I am the one who corrupted them, although they kept praying for my repentance (along with other faithful people that I did not know).
Few months before I repented, I had stopped believing in God. I had purposed in my heart to become really wild, worse than before. I was empty, lonely and hopeless.
I remember praying, “Lord, I want to serve You, but I do not know how to…” Yet, sometimes I would say, “I know You need me but do not call me now; let me enjoy life. Maybe when I am forty (40) years old, I will work for You.”
Two Unlikely Evangelists
Well, one day, I was going to my room enjoying the sound of Rihanna’s voice, when I met Ibim and Matilda holding Bibles. Ibim had been my roommate in my first year; and, at the time, she was definitely not a believer! I had also met Matilda once when I went for a modeling shoot. So, meeting them with Bibles was funny to me, especially when they told me they were on evangelism. “Hmm”, I thought, “Can anything good come out of these two?”
I usually do not listen to people who try to share the Word, but I invited them to my corner with a sarcastic intent which was to mock them; but, by the time they were done, I was already asking to follow them to church. It was funny that they seemed to say a lot of crazy and weird things that I had not heard before, and my roommate who overheard our discussion said that it was as if they were speaking rubbish, but I was greatly blessed. I also admired their courage in going around and preaching to people, so I really wanted to be like them.
I joined them to church the next Sunday. I was all dressed up sophisticatedly, but they were dressed in casual clothing. I had to return to wear flat shoes as I realised that I was likely overdressed
God’s Loving Encouragement
My walk with God was not all rosy at first as I had a lot of struggles – all the images and videos that I had fed my mind with kept replaying whenever I wanted to pray or study my Bible. The battle in my mind was tough, and since I had a bad habit of not opening up to people, I had to fight alone. Sometimes, I would just scream, “God, why do You not just give me a new brain?!”
Sometimes, I would feel unworthy to pray or read my Bible, but I would remember 1 John 2, where it has it that Jesus is my Advocate. I did not allow the struggle to weigh me down – I kept studying my Bible and praying because I understood that it will fade with time as I stay on in Christ; but, at some point, I struggled with Bible study and prayer …
To be continued…
Miraculous Monday: 13th January 2025
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