At one point, all I wanted was for God to simply acknowledge my existence. By this time, the major way He spoke to me was through dreams. But the two times I prayed before sleeping, expecting to receive something, I woke up with nothing. This brought me to tears, deepening my offence and resentment toward my life. I became angry at God and concluded that He didn’t even care about me. However, one day, I remembered Job’s story. I thought to myself, “I didn’t commit any big sin to deserve this, so maybe, just maybe, God is testing me.”
That day, I made a statement, one that I am both proud and ashamed of even now. I said, “God, even if You decide to hate me, I will still love You. Because what if I insult You now, only to later find out that this was all a test?” So, I endured.
My Deliverance
I was fortunate to have a God’s Lighthouse member as my roommate. He shared the living Word with me, and it excited me. I longed to attend his church and gain the same scriptural depth he had. On October 29th 2024, I attended my first Sunday meeting. I enjoyed it, though certain moments tested my patience and faith, especially since I had come on an empty stomach. When the meeting ended, instead of feeling sad, I was filled with overwhelming joy. My heart burned with a new fire to do God’s will and please Him.
Some delays that occurred that day caused disappointment to cloud my heart, and voices echoed that nobody cared or loved me, triggering deeper struggles. Still, I focused on the words that I received when the Prophetic Intercessory Team prayed for me. Then came the realisation that God knew I existed, and He was aware of everything I was going through. That brought peace and light to my heart. The next Sunday, I received an apology concerning the delays that had happened in the previous meeting. The humility touched me and reassured me that love is real, and I truly felt welcomed and accepted in this house.
To be continued…
Miraculous Monday: 22nd September 2025
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