I frantically refused to give her the meal; and, if it had not been my first day at home plus the fact that the meal was my favourite food, I know I would have had to explain why. The addiction began to develop and smoking became a part of my daily routine.
It was the first thing that I did when I woke up in the morning and the last thing I did before I went to bed. I ended up influencing my roommate, and she began to smoke too though not as bad as I did. I soon got connected to a dealer and would buy weed in large amounts and even get some for free too.
I was always asking for a better grade – something that would hit harder than the last. I started to mix it with other things, dunk it in alcohol for days before drinking, then smoke while drinking the mixture for full effect. All of this was to fill the gaping hole in my heart caused by rejection, heartbreak and a total disappointment in myself even though nobody ‘appointed’ me in the first place.
Sexual Addiction
I was not only a chronic smoker but also very immoral. Intoxication and sexual immorality always went hand in hand for me. I believe the door to sexual immorality was opened when I was sexually harassed by a neighbour, his brother and his sister at different points in my life.
These were seeds sown in my life which brought forth a bountiful harvest. Not only did I move from relationship to relationship, receiving and giving heartbreaks, I also engaged in one-night stands and friends-with-benefits relationships. I was quite careless with my health too, but God was merciful as I never got pregnant, although I did have to treat infections severally.
God did not allow me to reap all the fruits of my labour.
Pornography and Masturbation
Due to the fact that I was exposed to pornography when I was about eight (8) by our neighbour who made me watch the videos as cartoons on his phone, an insatiable lust for it began to grow; and, when I was old enough to be on my own, I added it to the numerous sins I committed.
To Be Continued…
Miraculous Monday: 3rd March 2025
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