It was in my addiction to marijuana that God stretched out His hands towards me, started to cause an uneasiness in my soul and I began to question life and what my purpose on earth was.
Fighting Drugs and Losing
The Scripture that says that no one can come to Jesus unless the Father pulls him to Himself is alive in my heart because I know for a fact that I would have never come to know the Lord unless He reached out to grab me. There came a time that I became a proper addict, never going a day without smoking. I had withdrawal symptoms if I did not smoke in a day. I did not want to live in reality at all as it was filled with too much pain and I wanted to escape it all; but, then, I could only escape when I was either high or sleeping, so I did a lot of both.
There was this time that I had tried to stop smoking; I cannot recall the reason, but I took all my smoking accessories and tossed them into the ravine behind my house. It did not take up to an hour before I went back to the ravine to look for it. It made the scripture, “The arm of flesh will fail you,” all the more real to me. I tried to stop – but in my own strength – and it did not work. There was one of my smoking buddies who I had made an accountability partner and vice versa so we would both stop smoking but it did not work as we just kept lying to each other until we finally came clean.
Because of drugs, I could never put on weight – I weighed almost the same thing for years. I suffered insomnia, cognitive dissonance and frequent coughs amongst other things because of it. Now, I believe the time for my salvation was close by and God put a hold on my finances so that I could no longer afford to buy weed.
The withdrawal symptoms were brutal – there was this regular scratching of my nose, insomnia, I became easily irritated and depressed; I was generally alone, stayed indoors the whole time; and, it was in that time alone that I would consume books and materials on purpose which led me to read some dark materials, and, eventually, the book that would bring me to my knees and cause me to confess Jesus as Lord.
Witchcraft and the Occult
During that period, I began to read deep things on purpose which led me to books on enlightenment. It did not take long before I was delving into reading and practising meditative postures in a bid to open my “third eye”
To Be Continued…
Miraculous Monday: 10th March 2025
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