Instead of turning to God, I turned to the wrong places for comfort and got drawn deeper into sin as a result. Then I lost the new phone I had gotten to a bus robbery on the way back from sinning in Anambra. So in the space of months, I lost two gadgets (three actually if I include the laptop that was stolen first) and a loved one. All these experiences, especially the robbery incidents, opened me up to the spirit of fear. With all these losses, I began to think about my life, yet I didn’t exactly know what to do. Around this time, I embarked on serious intermittent fasts and exercises to lose weight, because I used to be quite chubby and felt uncomfortable about it. In the process, I threw in some time to seek God, but mainly for a better life and finances.
I began to tune into a Christian program on YouTube. One time, while I was kneeling and praying, I had my first trance (it was later that I understood it was a trance). I saw myself in the same clothes I was wearing in real life, but I was in a dark place. I turned and looked at the one bulb I saw that was shining, but the bulb went off, leaving the place all dark. Then I felt a heavy bag on one of my shoulders. I struggled to get it off, but I’m not sure it went off. There were also big food flasks all around me, like luggage. It was like I was trapped. Then I came back to reality, and I was really scared because I understood I was in darkness.
After that, I started feeling different. I heard and saw things, and somehow they would come to be in reality. I was confused and scared. These experiences started while I was in a former sin partner’s house, so it made me remember the Psalm of David that says, “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?” God reached out to me, even while I was in the wrong place.
I returned to Uyo, and the experiences continued. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, but there was a burden in my heart. I would cry for days. I could not sleep properly or eat properly.
Things I dreamt of or heard sometimes came to pass, or eventually someone will say the same thing I heard while sleeping. I would see scriptures in my dream that would point to a calling when I checked them out on waking. This continued till I lost all happiness, and lost so much weight, much more than I wanted. My body type, accentuated by indecent dressing, was such an idol before, and of course, attracted a lot of nasty people and compliments. But in that season of encounter and unrest, my weight dropped so badly that it looked like I was deadly sick.
To be continued…
Miraculous Monday: 1st September 2025
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