Author: Joanna Ndem
Date of Creation: 30th June, 2025
Dear Abba
It’s me again
What should I say to You?
You said I should be vulnerable
But to bare myself is scary and hurtful
How can I let down my guard?
The world I live in says you have to be strong
Do not show weakness, they say, or you will be a prey
But how do I pray? How do I talk to You without being weak?
You see all my weaknesses – the dirt, the pain, the scars
You don’t deserve to see all of that because You Lord are
Divine and Pure Majestic and Beautiful, Strong and Mighty
Guess what, Abba? I tried it out. Being weak? Yes, I did.
But I realised that You don’t see me as a prey
Instead You said, “Lay it all down.
“You are beautiful and strong even in your weakness
“Because in your weakness I am made strong.”
Who talks and thinks like You? No one but You
Who sees me as still worthy even in my pain and weaknesses?
No one but You.
You said, “I am making you my man.”
“So come now or tomorrow, I will still love and heal you of you
Will you let Me come in?”
You say, “Why the self preservation? You know I don’t work with such.
“Where is the reckless abandon?
“You can’t keep me outside for too long.
“You said you love Me. Then show me those pains, fears,
unworthy feelings, and doubts. “Show Me and tell Me all about them.”
“You are not alone, I got you
“I will never leave you
“Even in the darkness of it all,
I am still there. Not far but close
‘Do you trust me?
“Then you will see Me.’
Sizzling Sunday: 1st February 2026
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