I felt I was actually sleeping with someone, and this could last for one (1) to two (2) hours.
Confused, Disappointed and Discouraged
Whenever I got a little serious with God, I would feel peace; but, then, I would get stuck on the internet again – I was on so many social media platforms; I would even use people’s pictures to create false profiles. I wanted to be a motivational speaker, mainly because of all the experiences I had. I had a page on Facebook which was really booming, and I wrote a book at thirteen which I titled ‘The Exceptional Teenager’.
I already knew my calling, but these demons of mine just haunted me. However, all I wrote about in my book was the opposite of the real me. Days turned into months, months into years – five (5), six (6), seven (7) years – and, I accepted my fate. I hated God many times.
The Men in my Life
I was delighted when I gained admission. In less than four (4) weeks, I had a boyfriend, but he was boring so I just left him. I met another guy who was rich, but I had all that I wanted, so I just enjoyed his company and not the money. One night, we planned to party. He lured me to his house and nearly raped me.
It was really a fight to survive – he even cried just to – sleep with me – I wanted to give in, but I did not want to look cheap, so I refused. He was just all over me. The stomach ulcer pains I had scared him (and saved me), because he did not want me to die or something like that. Few weeks later, I forgave him, but everything was just dry, so I broke up with him and decided to be alone.
The Killer Girl
I loved clothing that exposed the body – the rag jeans I wore were rugged; I loved crop tops and short things – I basically loved to dress to kill, to seduce. I am not a very good dancer, but, whenever I was in a party or such places, I could dance for hours with really seductive moves, and I made sure I got all the guys I danced with aroused before moving on.
I used to term myself as an extremist. I did not like to associate or get too attached to people, so a person could be my friend for years and not know me – it was like I had several personalities in me. I have not read ‘The Art of Seduction’ or ’48 Laws of Power’ myself, but from what I have heard, I had practiced most of what is written in those books.
I felt like a boss lady; my decisions were final – if I told someone that I was going to do something, I was not asking for their opinion rather I was just telling them so that when I finally did it, they would know I told them. I gave a lot of bad advice to people and made people do really bad things.
To be continued…
Miraculous Monday: 30th December 2024
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