Soundtracks for My Moods
I had soundtracks for my moods, and songs for getting certain ‘vibes’; by about May/June 2016, I had plans to become the bad girl people thought I was, and I had music to help me do that. Most of it was trap and rap music, and it was usually better in parties or clubs because I could feel the bass beats physically – in my chest and such.
This means that if I was about to have a photo-shoot dressed in things (indecent clothes) I was not comfortable with, do makeup based on a ‘vibe’, or do ungodly things in public, I liked listening to that sort of music with the volume turned up. It was easy, like acting – it is not really you there, and you are the suave bad girl character in the movie, with the background music as your soundtrack.
The Turning Point
After I came to God’s Lighthouse, one Sunday afternoon, after the meeting in the house, I was hanging around in the parlour when pastor either asked someone if they had seen The Truth Behind Hip-Hop or was telling them to watch it. I had been around for maybe four or five meetings before then, and I still had my music, but I stopped playing them after I felt many scary things around me at night when I listened to James Joint.
That song had lots of slurred parts, like echoing mono-syllables; like soul journey music. I asked him if it was wrong, and he said a few things about why it was bad, somehow mentioning specific people I liked, like DMX and so on. I found it hard to accept that hip-hop music was bad so he referred me to the video.
The Shocking Discovery
I watched the video (The Truth Behind Hip-Hop, from EX Ministries) with two sisters. In one of the videos, G. Craig Lewis played a clip from my former ringtone (Lucifer, by Jay Z), backwards, and it was ‘666, murder, murder, Jesus, 666.’ I knew things were bad; but, that night, my soul was sorely terrified.
While I and one of the sisters resolved not to even think about any non-Christian songs after that, the other girl who saw this video with us insisted that not all that music was so bad. (This person is living in sin at the time I am writing this, and she used to be part of our church group, but she fell away because of things like this. Do not give any room to the devil’s little foxes; do not love the world or the things in the world, because, if you do, there will not be any room left to love the Father.)
I prayed at the end of the message, and I was alarmed that when I repented and asked God’s Spirit to replace those negative influences, there were palpable physical reactions in my body…
To Be Continued…
Miraculous Monday: 10th February 2025
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