How It All Began
Before I began dabbling in dark things, I was already drawn to them. I hated light, sounds, colours, and anything that brought about happiness. I hated flowers and only liked black roses with thorns. I was also a fan of snakes. I even had a pair of glasses that had a snake on each of their handles. It was strange to others, but it felt normal to me. As a child, I’d envisage the different ways I could die and how my burial would look. And to crown it all, I was really stubborn and strong-willed. I was quiet nonetheless, so it was hard to tell that I was a stubborn child. Plus, I always brought home great results for my parents. My siblings and I were the children every parent in my family’s church wished they had. They’d tell their kids to emulate us. My mum warned us against bad company and did her best to keep us on the path of righteousness, but the devil had his plans. The good thing is, God had a better plan.
Seeing that I don’t know what opened the door to witchcraft in my life, I’ll just start with the obscenity. It was just as though the enemy was waiting for me to be introduced to watching X-rated videos, and everything would be set. When I began watching these videos, it was just something involving males and females. But because my heart was dark and always sought the darkest things possible, I began to make weird searches. First, I was watching scenes of bestiality. It felt satisfying to me, but after a while, I got dissatisfied and needed something more.
I began to search for videos involving demons-demons and humans. And began watching more and more of them, which came out as animations many times. If there was any time I didn’t watch content involving demons, I’d watch one involving homosexuals-anything but the natural intimacy of males and females. These I did watch, but rarely.
Now, around this time, I had already started watching weird movies, courtesy of my classmates and Google. One day, a classmate of mine introduced me to a movie. It was the first movie I watched that had to do with witchcraft. The TV series was banned later for some reason known to them.
While I was watching this series, I was already practising some of the spells from the movie, but nothing happened, so I considered them fake. I was introduced to a book, too and began reading it. Then I went on to watch a movie about it. If you wanted to trap me, then all you needed to do was bring movies that were horror, witchcraft, vampires, werewolves, or apocalyptic. I began searching on Google for the darkest movies there were, and would watch them. I’d explain what I needed in each movie, and Google tried not to disappoint. Other times, it did disappoint.
Of course, in all these, you can guess that I was cursing a lot. Seeing that most of these movies had to do with the British community, I found myself cursing like the British, which is way different from any other society. I began to read about Greek mythology and fancied their gods. I fancied their gods so much that I wished to be intimate with any of them, specifically Zeus. I thank God that even in all of these, I never had carnal knowledge with anyone. Well, there wasn’t a chance to, because I had a demonic hatred for humans, was proud, and would say things like, “No one is deserving of me”-filthy me at that time. I liked to think of myself as a goddess and saw myself as one. In all of these, I was battling with rejection, suicide, depression, and other things that come with the package. The irony of life.
To be continued…
Miraculous Monday: 3rd November 2025
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