As a little girl, I was introduced to sexual activities by some of my older cousins. Initially, it was only one cousin who came to stay in our house. He was much older than I, and told lies about a lot of things. Being a young girl, I believed everything he said.
One of the lies he told was that he was going to show me how males and females were supposed to interact; the right way to show “love”. As usual, I believed the lie. I soon joined in what I later discovered was a family affair. Most of my male and female cousins were carrying out sexual acts together. With my childish mindset, I was pushed or rather coaxed into this way of life.
When Even the Leopard Changes its Spot
One year, I went to my cousin’s house during the Christmas holidays. Something changed; everyone acted differently. I was confused. Apparently, a revival had occurred at their house. They told me that the previous year was the last time such evil acts occurred. They were all changed – called by the Lord and all very prophetic.
Mixed emotions ran through me. I felt both hurt and relieved. But regardless of this great change, it seemed like I was destined to be an outsider. I just couldn’t catch the fluke, fire or whatever it was that came with the revival. Attending the church meetings with them didn’t make much difference to me.
The Enchantress
A few years later, we had moved to a new neighbourhood, and I met a light-skinned girl I will call Jael. As I stated earlier, I had a love-hate relationship with the lesbian acts partly because my cousins were fat and dark. Things were different with Jael. She was everything from beautiful to fair, slim with a nice set of teeth. She was like a breath of fresh air to me, at the time.
She would come to my house when my parents went out, and we would role play all day. She had this intoxicating aura; I was enchanted. Whenever she was around, I just couldn’t think of anything else apart from doing bad things with her. Jael drew me deeper into lesbianism.
We didn’t even have proper conversations; it was all about lust. Whenever we we’re done doing evil, she would hurry out saying she had to go meet her aunt. Any conversation wouldn’t last more than a minute or two. This went on for a few years until we moved again to a new neighbourhood.
It was in the new neighborhood that I first came in contact with pornography. I saw it on a big cousin’s phone; a female this time. That was the hook; I became addicted. Pornography and masturbation became a part of my life.
A Breath of Fresh Air
When I became born again, pornography and masturbation which held sway in my life, sort of lifted immediately. This was as I began to attend church meetings and hear the words of God taught through Pastor Ita. Like water, they washed over me and purified my heart from those inclinations. I am very grateful to God for that. But other things took some process to heal…
One thing I did a lot in this period was pray. I prayed that God should deliver me from those things. I wanted Him to take them away.
God did come through for me. My deliverance came gradually from a combination of actions: I attended gatherings with the tangible manifest presence of God, listened to the Word, practiced what Pastor Ita taught on parapets, including a deliverance session in which I had several demonic manifestations – one of which was lust which manifested in my seducing and singing sensually to one of the female leaders who was praying for me.
The Moment it Ended
Finally, my deliverance was complete at an all-night meeting we had in church following the Passover Retreat in April 2021, where I had experienced a series of deliverances.
It was at this all-night that the Lord brought it to my remembrance and I came to the realization of the root of most of my issues – the root was deeply entrenched in – my encounters with Jael.
During the retreat and later on at the all-night meeting, as pastor led us to renounce sins, I did so with all the faith that I had. I was remembering all that happened while undergoing a non-dramatic deliverance.
I really want to thank God that I am no longer bound.
Whether subtle or pronounced, God found them all and set me free! I feel immensely blessed. It is a big deal for me especially as a female.
Miraculous Monday: 10th October 2022
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