If my dad reads this testimony, he will be shocked. My parents believed that they had a good son but in reality I was not the good son they believed me to be.
Early Walk with God
In 2008, I gave my life to Christ and had fellowship with Him. There were sessions of Bible classes going on in our church then. It was awesome being there. In 2010, I got baptized in water. While going for the Bible classes, I learnt quite a lot of things.
I learnt to not be rebellious and disobedient, and I applied this especially in situations where my mum would have had to push me to do my chores. Instead of waiting for her to do so, I went willingly. Sometimes I would have it done already before she even asked. This prevented her from scolding me and so I was seen as a mature child despite my age. Even at marriage seminars, I would often speak up and people would wonder at my depth of knowledge. They would often say, “Well, you know little children have ears and eyes too.”
A Friendship Rooted in Faith
Back then, there was a girl I had been friends with since 2007. We used to discuss the Bible and talk about God. My life seemed good enough. We agreed to dedicate our Wednesdays to personal fasting and prayers. In doing so, God revealed things to us and we continued studying and praying together. The experience was great.
The Turning Point
On getting admission and resumption in the University of Uyo in December 2012, my life changed drastically. I became a “big boy.” Inflated with pride, I got influenced and took on a bad character because of the company I kept.
A lot of things changed, beginning from my spiritual life. Then from 2013 to 2017, the girl and I delved deeply into the sin of fornication. Along the line, she became pregnant and had an abortion.
The Hidden Struggle
During this period, I was in the church choir. I would fornicate on Saturday and sing in the choir on Sunday. Nobody in the church cared to find out what was happening. Deep down within me, I kept on praying, “Lord, please take away this life of sin from me.” I progressed from fornication to pornography and more terrible things, and still, my relationship with the girl did not end.
At a point, I started asking, “Is this friend of mine demonic? Lord, I don’t understand. Why can’t I ‘fall in love’ (lust) with someone else?” I asked myself these questions because I couldn’t fathom why she wouldn’t leave. We were both fighting the same mental battles. I kept praying that the Lord in His mercies would do something. But then almost every day, we would go for programmes and church activities together. And there, we’d still pray, make resolutions [to change], and still fall back into the same sins over and over again.
To Be Continued…
Miraculous Monday: 25th September 2023
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